Welcome to Inner Voice

The search for the perfect words makes me not say any at all
And in wanting to sound perfect I make no sound
(Which maybe a good thing in the end)
Like Twain said, "Better to remain silent and be thought a fool, than to speak and remove all doubt!"

Realisation hits you like a bolt one day, that life is endlessly repetitive after a point. Why was school and college so good? Maybe it's because we didn't know what would come next. After a few years of work, you feel that it'll never be any different ever. You may say that a successful person doesn't do different things, he does them differently, or that it's all in the perspective. True, but the sheer boredom of routine. Get up, mad day at work, mad traffic, doesn't seem quite right.

I've always had one set of people telling me I don't talk much, while another said I overdo it a bit in the talking department. I talk more in my sleep sometimes. I find myself repeating things people said to see how they sound. I like imitating accents. I think I have a good voice and stand in front of a corner and say "It is your destiny" though I doubt I could dub for Darth Vader as James Earl Jones did.

Live radio! I was sure I could never do that. Funny how things turn out though. A challenge to be able to do what you never thought you could. The search for saying the brightest, wittiest things does pull me down once in a while and I did say 'konshishly' for 'consciously' and 'thirunananam' for 'Thiruvananthapuram'. Like they said, 'Don't impress, just express'. Easier said than done though.

It's a little different than normal work however and the 2 hour gap between shows makes me wonder how I got so much free time in life all of a sudden. Perhaps time can be compressed and doesn't have to move in fast forward all the time.

The challenge will be to bring out the real voice within (no, this is not a line from a beauty contest). We talk of our inner selves, this is about your inner voice. Let it tell you who you are and what you can do. I'm not there yet, but in the meantime, I still stand at the room corner and in front of a mike once a week. Listen to me on 101.3, currently on Fridays 6-7 pm, 9-11 pm (Bangalore). Maybe you can help me sound like I think I want to.